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I am not very happy about this one, but I can't seem to fix it.
Comments would be nice, so I can try fixing it up!
^_^
The sun shone through the ancient branches,
Bright gold streaking through, illuminating the soft pink of the cherry blossoms
My eyes find you deep in concentration,
Your eyes fixated on your easel
Your hands gripping the pencil
The thin scars decorating your skin turning white
The wind picks up and elegantly the tree sheds its flowers,
Little pink butterflies dancing upon the wind
I try to imitate their grace, twirling beneath
My head tilted up toward the bright sun
My eyes closed enjoying the feel of the velvet petals
Caressing my cheeks as they begin their decent all around me
“Isn’t this the most beautiful place? Don’t you just wish we could stay here forever?”
I turn to see your eyebrows drawn in concentration
“Yep really pretty tree” you mummer back distracted.
With a final stroke from your pencil you look up at me and smile
“I’m all done, let’s get a move on”
You start to collect your things as I turn back to the Cherry Blossom tree,
Trying to commit its beauty to memory
I suddenly recall that this was my dream not yours
Yet here you are far from home in a strange country
You call to me, and I run to you taking your outstretched hand,
So warm and soft despite you’re hardships
I’m glad you’re by my side, sharing this journey with me
I could ask for no better person, my beloved brother.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Sin
Sin, the only place in Seoul where anything goes, no one cares what you do, lease of all with whom. Behind the cold steel doors of the underground club lies another world. And you’d be surprised at what happens behind closed doors far away from prying eyes. The freedom goes to your head till your almost drunk on it. You let instincts and primal lust guide you, fuck reason you don’t need it here, just let yourself enjoy. It’s a heaven for creatures of the night and those that have something to hide, a place to air out those skeletons hidden a way in your closest. You take of the mask you wear the whole day, to protect innocent eyes from the beast you really are, abandoning it at the door and indulge in your true desires, surrounded by others who feel just as pressed in as you. It’s a place where sinners like me can show their true colours.
I made my way along the edge of the club, my body swaying to the throbbing beat as my eyes roamed the wide sea of thrashing bodies covering the floor and the raised platforms spaced around the club. Pulsing lights flashed sporadically through out the club piercing through the dimness, setting shadowy faces aglow. As soon as the five of us walked through the thick blood red curtain separating the dance floor from the lobby, we spilt up. Jae dragged of Yunho to find a nice corner were they could dance the night away in each others arms, trapped in their own world, only resurfacing when the time for them to take their leave came knocking.
Our youngest Min, darted off as quick a lighting prompting Junsu to follow him in case he got himself in trouble like he usually does. But apparently the youth had given Junnie the slip as I looked up from my place at the edge of the dance floor and spotted him, his tall lanky form sandwiched between two hot twins, both chicks extremely scantly clad. He caught my eye and gestured me to join in, a wide grin plastered on his face, clearly enjoying himself with the ladies. Damn, that kid was starting to take on my abandoned role, the playboy of the group. I waved him off before continuing on my path, passing by two girls that were slithering against each other, the taller girl leaning in occasionally to place light kisses on the smaller one’s lips. A group of guys, clearly first timers at Sin, stood near by gawking at the girls.
I reached the far wall of the club, and spotted Jae and Yunho dancing, clearly absorbed only in one other, and I didn’t want to disturb them. I turned and pushed my self into the crowd of dancers, and began to fight my way toward the closest platform. Hands stroked at my arms, shoulders and back, some daring to go further down to my ass. Both women and men sent me welcoming smiles, eyes racking over my trim body, their hands reaching for me, begging me to come dance with them.
I managed to get on to the platform and immediately a woman clad in red silk that clung to her like a second skin showing off her curves approached me. A seductive smirk played on her lips as I surveyed her.
“Like what you see handsome” she purred. I had to admit she was sexy, long dark hair cascading down her exposed back, her pale skin illuminated by the club lights. My sweat soaked shirt clung to my body giving her a nice view of my toned stomach, which her hungry eyes feasted upon. She reached out to trail her fingers down my chest, sliding down to the top of the waistband of my jeans. Hooking her fingers through my belt loops she jerked me closer to her. Her hand quickly snaked up to unbutton the top four buttons on my shirt before she circled me, a lioness admiring her prey, her red lacquered fingernails skimming the breath of my shoulders.
I felt her hot breath behind my ear whispering a quick, “Come dance with me” before she came round to press the full length of her body against mine, her leg slipping in between my thighs. With a quick peck on my cheek she pulled away, motioning with her index finger, trying to reel me in, make me come to her. The player buried deep inside of me reared his head begging me to oblige her. There was a time were I would have played with her a bit at the club before following her home and fucking her all night, then creep away like the shadows of the night as dawn approached. But there it is, the key word -‘Was’. I gave her a smile before spinning around and walking off the platform. I bet she was pretty disappointed, but she’d find another more willing catch to please her, I was already taken.
I headed toward the booths at the end of the dance floor, trying my best to doge the groping hands, yet I still got molested quite a bit. Guess I should take that as a compliment, I’m that irresistible. Scanning the crowd once again I found a familiar face. A young girl with a pixie cut was sitting atop a table; legs crossed surveying the scene before her with dark eyes that lit up as they found me. I smiled at her, she was a regular at the club and we had danced together a couple of times. I saw her jerk her chin in the direction her friend, a girl with wavy brown hair standing next to her was staring fixatedly at. I sent a wink her way and mouthed a ‘thank you’, which she dismissed with an elegant wave of her hand, her smirk clearly saying ‘just go have fun’.
I quickly made my way in the direction she had pointed out and finally found the person I was looking for. I stared at the angel dancing in front of me, hips swaying to the beat, lost in the pleasure of the music such an erotically charged vision to watch. I crept up behind Junsu wrapping my arms around his waist, pulling his back against my chest. He didn’t flinch recognizing my touch.
“What took you so long Yoochun” he murmured as I swayed, getting a feel for the music. He turned in my arms, his lower lip jutting out to form a pout.
“Stop pretending to be innocent Su-ah” I growled out playfully and he responded by backing away and smacking me on the head.
“You’re the pervert that corrupted me Chunnie-ah”
“Ya ya whatever” I muttered pushing my sweat drenched hair out of my face,
“Now shut up and dance with me, that’s why we’re here right?” An evil smirk made its appearance on his face as his hands reached out to rest on my hips. My own hand reached toward him to caress his face, returning the smile he graced me with.
Junsu and I were best friends; we knew each other inside and out. But every thing changed, one day under a gray-cloaked sky with rain pouring around us, the day he kissed me. Needless to say I was shocked, I mean we’re both guys, but that one kiss stirred up feelings that I struggled to fight, we both fought. We tried to stay away from each other and our friends took notice. Around about this time Jae and Yunho told us they were going out and upon finding out the cause of the fight between Junnie and I, Jae made it his duty to help us sort through our muddled feelings. He told me he’d always thought we’d make a good couple. Eventually I got sick of fighting, sure why not try it out, experiment a little. But Jae was right strangely enough, it seemed like we were meant for each other, now I couldn’t live with out him. Min was a little upset that his hyungs were gay, but we all came to realize that that wasn’t it. I was a total womanizer, and that part of me still lurks in the shadows, but I can never be attracted to another man, it’s just Junsu.
Only he can make me smile with his signature laughter. Only he can warm my chilly skin with his soft touch. Only he can entice me with his sweet kisses. Only he can drive me wild with his moans as I pound into him. Only my Su.
“Hey! Earth to Park Yoochun!” Su’s voice broke through my musings.
“Sorry babe, just zoned out” I grinned sheepishly.
“Hmm well if you find me boring I guess I can remedy that”. I started to protest but his lips on mine swallowed my words. He danced closer to me, his hips rolling up into my crotch and I heard him let out a sexy little moan. My hands dropped to his infamous kamo butt, pushing him closer to me as we ground against each other. The urge to rip his clothes of him crawled up on me and it took all the self-control I could muster to resist. Quickly I grabbed his hand and started tugging him toward the exit.
“Wha…what are you doing!” he squeaked out in surprise, his hand clasping mine non-the less.
“I’m taking you home so we can finish what we started in the privacy of our bedroom that’s what.”
“What was that Yoochun hyung?” Min popped up in front of us blocking our way.
“Jun and I are leaving, you make sure you find Jae and Yunho and come home with them” I ordered him, in a hurry to leave.
“And you better not be drunk cuz I’m gonna kill you if Jae and Yunho make us come and help them haul your sorry ass up the stairs. Seriously Min your too tall, you’re a freak of nature!” Junsu called out over his shoulder as I yanked on his arm to make him move faster.
Loving Junsu maybe a sin, and I might possibly go to hell for that, but right now I just don’t give a damn. I’ll get my fill of heaven right here on earth, just by being with Junsu. As we quickly ambled up the steps away from the club Junnie tried to pull his hand free of mine. The gesture reminded me that we were no longer under the protection of the club; time to put our masks back on. But for one second I refused the inevitable, I pulled him closer ignoring his protests and kissed him full out right there in public, sucking the air out of him, taking in the sweet taste that belonged to him and only him. Granted it was around 4 in the morning and there was practically no one around, but it still felt good. I wish we didn’t have to hide, I wish our love wasn’t looked upon as sin. Looking into Junsu’s eyes I can see he felt the same way. He grabbed my elbow and tugged me in the direction of a cab parked at the curb. So we hurry along desperate for each other, desperate to give into our forbidden love, desperate to live a life of sin.
Note – In Korea they sometimes put ‘–ah’ at the end of people’s names, it’s commonly used among close friends to address each other.
Hyung means big brother, a younger man usually addresses older men in this way.
I made my way along the edge of the club, my body swaying to the throbbing beat as my eyes roamed the wide sea of thrashing bodies covering the floor and the raised platforms spaced around the club. Pulsing lights flashed sporadically through out the club piercing through the dimness, setting shadowy faces aglow. As soon as the five of us walked through the thick blood red curtain separating the dance floor from the lobby, we spilt up. Jae dragged of Yunho to find a nice corner were they could dance the night away in each others arms, trapped in their own world, only resurfacing when the time for them to take their leave came knocking.
Our youngest Min, darted off as quick a lighting prompting Junsu to follow him in case he got himself in trouble like he usually does. But apparently the youth had given Junnie the slip as I looked up from my place at the edge of the dance floor and spotted him, his tall lanky form sandwiched between two hot twins, both chicks extremely scantly clad. He caught my eye and gestured me to join in, a wide grin plastered on his face, clearly enjoying himself with the ladies. Damn, that kid was starting to take on my abandoned role, the playboy of the group. I waved him off before continuing on my path, passing by two girls that were slithering against each other, the taller girl leaning in occasionally to place light kisses on the smaller one’s lips. A group of guys, clearly first timers at Sin, stood near by gawking at the girls.
I reached the far wall of the club, and spotted Jae and Yunho dancing, clearly absorbed only in one other, and I didn’t want to disturb them. I turned and pushed my self into the crowd of dancers, and began to fight my way toward the closest platform. Hands stroked at my arms, shoulders and back, some daring to go further down to my ass. Both women and men sent me welcoming smiles, eyes racking over my trim body, their hands reaching for me, begging me to come dance with them.
I managed to get on to the platform and immediately a woman clad in red silk that clung to her like a second skin showing off her curves approached me. A seductive smirk played on her lips as I surveyed her.
“Like what you see handsome” she purred. I had to admit she was sexy, long dark hair cascading down her exposed back, her pale skin illuminated by the club lights. My sweat soaked shirt clung to my body giving her a nice view of my toned stomach, which her hungry eyes feasted upon. She reached out to trail her fingers down my chest, sliding down to the top of the waistband of my jeans. Hooking her fingers through my belt loops she jerked me closer to her. Her hand quickly snaked up to unbutton the top four buttons on my shirt before she circled me, a lioness admiring her prey, her red lacquered fingernails skimming the breath of my shoulders.
I felt her hot breath behind my ear whispering a quick, “Come dance with me” before she came round to press the full length of her body against mine, her leg slipping in between my thighs. With a quick peck on my cheek she pulled away, motioning with her index finger, trying to reel me in, make me come to her. The player buried deep inside of me reared his head begging me to oblige her. There was a time were I would have played with her a bit at the club before following her home and fucking her all night, then creep away like the shadows of the night as dawn approached. But there it is, the key word -‘Was’. I gave her a smile before spinning around and walking off the platform. I bet she was pretty disappointed, but she’d find another more willing catch to please her, I was already taken.
I headed toward the booths at the end of the dance floor, trying my best to doge the groping hands, yet I still got molested quite a bit. Guess I should take that as a compliment, I’m that irresistible. Scanning the crowd once again I found a familiar face. A young girl with a pixie cut was sitting atop a table; legs crossed surveying the scene before her with dark eyes that lit up as they found me. I smiled at her, she was a regular at the club and we had danced together a couple of times. I saw her jerk her chin in the direction her friend, a girl with wavy brown hair standing next to her was staring fixatedly at. I sent a wink her way and mouthed a ‘thank you’, which she dismissed with an elegant wave of her hand, her smirk clearly saying ‘just go have fun’.
I quickly made my way in the direction she had pointed out and finally found the person I was looking for. I stared at the angel dancing in front of me, hips swaying to the beat, lost in the pleasure of the music such an erotically charged vision to watch. I crept up behind Junsu wrapping my arms around his waist, pulling his back against my chest. He didn’t flinch recognizing my touch.
“What took you so long Yoochun” he murmured as I swayed, getting a feel for the music. He turned in my arms, his lower lip jutting out to form a pout.
“Stop pretending to be innocent Su-ah” I growled out playfully and he responded by backing away and smacking me on the head.
“You’re the pervert that corrupted me Chunnie-ah”
“Ya ya whatever” I muttered pushing my sweat drenched hair out of my face,
“Now shut up and dance with me, that’s why we’re here right?” An evil smirk made its appearance on his face as his hands reached out to rest on my hips. My own hand reached toward him to caress his face, returning the smile he graced me with.
Junsu and I were best friends; we knew each other inside and out. But every thing changed, one day under a gray-cloaked sky with rain pouring around us, the day he kissed me. Needless to say I was shocked, I mean we’re both guys, but that one kiss stirred up feelings that I struggled to fight, we both fought. We tried to stay away from each other and our friends took notice. Around about this time Jae and Yunho told us they were going out and upon finding out the cause of the fight between Junnie and I, Jae made it his duty to help us sort through our muddled feelings. He told me he’d always thought we’d make a good couple. Eventually I got sick of fighting, sure why not try it out, experiment a little. But Jae was right strangely enough, it seemed like we were meant for each other, now I couldn’t live with out him. Min was a little upset that his hyungs were gay, but we all came to realize that that wasn’t it. I was a total womanizer, and that part of me still lurks in the shadows, but I can never be attracted to another man, it’s just Junsu.
Only he can make me smile with his signature laughter. Only he can warm my chilly skin with his soft touch. Only he can entice me with his sweet kisses. Only he can drive me wild with his moans as I pound into him. Only my Su.
“Hey! Earth to Park Yoochun!” Su’s voice broke through my musings.
“Sorry babe, just zoned out” I grinned sheepishly.
“Hmm well if you find me boring I guess I can remedy that”. I started to protest but his lips on mine swallowed my words. He danced closer to me, his hips rolling up into my crotch and I heard him let out a sexy little moan. My hands dropped to his infamous kamo butt, pushing him closer to me as we ground against each other. The urge to rip his clothes of him crawled up on me and it took all the self-control I could muster to resist. Quickly I grabbed his hand and started tugging him toward the exit.
“Wha…what are you doing!” he squeaked out in surprise, his hand clasping mine non-the less.
“I’m taking you home so we can finish what we started in the privacy of our bedroom that’s what.”
“What was that Yoochun hyung?” Min popped up in front of us blocking our way.
“Jun and I are leaving, you make sure you find Jae and Yunho and come home with them” I ordered him, in a hurry to leave.
“And you better not be drunk cuz I’m gonna kill you if Jae and Yunho make us come and help them haul your sorry ass up the stairs. Seriously Min your too tall, you’re a freak of nature!” Junsu called out over his shoulder as I yanked on his arm to make him move faster.
Loving Junsu maybe a sin, and I might possibly go to hell for that, but right now I just don’t give a damn. I’ll get my fill of heaven right here on earth, just by being with Junsu. As we quickly ambled up the steps away from the club Junnie tried to pull his hand free of mine. The gesture reminded me that we were no longer under the protection of the club; time to put our masks back on. But for one second I refused the inevitable, I pulled him closer ignoring his protests and kissed him full out right there in public, sucking the air out of him, taking in the sweet taste that belonged to him and only him. Granted it was around 4 in the morning and there was practically no one around, but it still felt good. I wish we didn’t have to hide, I wish our love wasn’t looked upon as sin. Looking into Junsu’s eyes I can see he felt the same way. He grabbed my elbow and tugged me in the direction of a cab parked at the curb. So we hurry along desperate for each other, desperate to give into our forbidden love, desperate to live a life of sin.
Note – In Korea they sometimes put ‘–ah’ at the end of people’s names, it’s commonly used among close friends to address each other.
Hyung means big brother, a younger man usually addresses older men in this way.
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